is it my turn yet?

At the risk of sounding like a selfish brat, have you ever had one of those moments where everyone seems to be having something good to them but you and it drives you insane? Im definately having one of those moments.. like im trying to be happy for everyone else because when its their turn for that moment thats how I would want them to act. Its just that for me it doesnt seem like a "moment". Its seems like a lot longer than that. I guess im just wondering when its my turn for something good. Im sure itll come though.

Its summer! hahh..psych!!

Today I went out to Medelmens lake :) I was tanning..or trying to anyway there was a bunch of clouds. Then I tried to go swimming but almost got hypothermia so that was a no-go. I played volleyball for awhile and that was fun until someone kicked the ball out into the lake. Everyone was too wussy to swim out and get it, so I waited for it to drift to the other shore and walked around and got it. Even though, as a whole, going out to the lake was pretty lame, I still totally felt like it was summer. So when I remembered that I have school next week and a portfolio due monday (oiewkjvdioopyji!!!) I kinda wanted to scream. hmm..well im tired. and I still have another blog to write tonight because I got behind againnnn.

early goodbyes :(

I just read Wrights blog...well im going to be honest, I got about down to the second paragraph and put a mental bookmark in it. I promise I'll read the whole thing sometime Wright :) But anyway, his blog puts mine to shame. I wish I had time to make a snazzy blog. When this class is over in a week, is everyone going to keep blogging? Im going to, but itll probably be another one of those things like my myspace. I get on once every 2 or 3 months. I really wanted to stay connected with everyone though. So ya better keep blogging! Especially you seniors.. Since I might not see you again :( I hate being able to say that. But in case everyone becomes complete bums over the summer and no one blogs.. grr.. I want to say I had a really great time with everyone in this class this year! And I will miss you all! Have a good summer :) and this should be my last blog for the school year, but it isnt..

text collage :)

I don't know why the picture is so small :( but it enlarges if you click on it. I picked excited because im super excited for summer! I started to do the random letters in the background, but then I realized how long it would take to fill the whole page so I just filled up the corners. I chose green for the color because it's one of my favorites annnd its a happy color :)

Easter break

This break actually seemed really long. I thought itd go by really fast, but it actually feels like its been a week that we've been out of school. Easter wasn't quite what i expected. I always picture a really pretty sunny day. Rain and cold never really fit into that picture. I thought for sure I was past the easter egg hunt stage in my life, but my cousins insisted I look for eggs with them..idk why I cant ever just say no. I guess i didnt want to make them feel bad. But anyway...it was nice to just lay around for an entire day. happyyy easter.

Save it for ur momma

I cant stand drama any more..
like some situations i can understand why there has to be an issue, but constant drama? its like anytime you get away from it, youre only away from it long enough to find out that u were mistaken and it was really there all along. Some people gossip, spread rumors, and talk crap because their life is too boring not to. seriously? get a life. Im not gonna act like im perfect though. like ive never gossiped or told a rumor-ya right. I just really want to try and stop..people dont understand the kind of effect that has on someone. ugh..girls are sooo catty too. I saw a fight in the forum last wednesday, not a fist fight-dont get too excited. Five girls were sitting around this one poor girl who was being completely attacked. It was like watching vultures peck at a little innocent animal carcass. I felt so bad for her :( I hope im never in that situation..id start bawling for sure. I hope im not ever involved in attacking someone like that either. well thats all i have to say about that :)

heyy its a blizzard outside. Lets go run a track meet!

The track team traveled to grand island last thursday. We won :) but it wasn't fun. at all. It was freeezing cold. I had on five layers of clothing, and I still felt like I was running around in a tshirt and shorts. The wind chill was ridiculous..it was in the teens somewhere..i dont remember. It started out raining, and I thought the worst that it could do was snow. Then it started sleeting, and this wasnt little tiny drops of ice that melt when they hit the ground. It was like dippin dots pelting you in the face. noooot fun. But im just glad we at won at least!

hmph. dead end

I am totally in one of those situations where you have absolutely NO idea what to do. Its like no matter how long you think it over or how many peoples opinions you ask, no answer seems right. You hit a dead end. You'd think after awhile one of my choices would seem better than another...would seem like the right thing to do, but none of them do. errrg

Fingerprints: Katy Perry

Voted most likely
To end up on the back of a milk box drink
Looks like I'm letting 'em down'
Cause $7.75
Isn't worth an hour of my hard work and time
When you can't afford half the sh** they advertise
Oh I'm worth more than an ex
More than a toe-tagged generation full of regrets
Ohh I won't settle no oh
Oh I can't settleI wanna break the mold
Wanna break the stereotype
Fist in the air I'm not going down with out a fight

(Chorus)It's my life
And I'm not sitting on the sidelines watching it
Pass me byI'm leaving you my legacy
I gotta make my markI gotta run it hard
I want you to remember me
I'm leaving my fingerprints
I'm leaving my fingerprints
I'm leaving my fingerprints on you
Representing you and me
Don't you wanna go down in history
Rather than end up
Begging on the streets
Trading undertable favors
For a place to sleep
'Cause I'm worth more than this
So stop writing prescriptions for more Ritalin
I can focus my attention
I wanna break the mold
Wanna break the stereotype
Fist in the air I'm not going down with out a fight

(Chorus)It's my life
And I'm not sitting on the sidelines watching it
Pass me by
I'm leaving you my legacy
I gotta make my mark
I gotta run it hard
I want you to remember me
I'm leaving my fingerprints
I'm leaving my fingerprints
Don't give up
Don't give in
Build your house on the rock
Oh not in the sand, in the sand, in the sand, in the sand

(Chorus)It's my life
And I'm not sitting on the sidelines watching it
Pass me byI'm leaving you my legacy
I gotta make my markI gotta run it hard
I want you to remember me
It's my life And I'm not sitting on the sidelines watching it
Pass me byI'm leaving you my legacy
I gotta make my markI gotta run it hard
I want you to remember me
'Cause I'm leaving my fingerprints
I'm leaving my fingerprints
I'm leaving my fingerprints in the END

Am I caught up on blogs yet?

Best band ever.

I wrote to them for pc..so I reallly hope they write me back and give me an autograph!

All their songs are awesome..Keeper is definately my favorite. I'll make a playlist sometime.

A short one.

(This blog is going to make up for my last painfully long blog)
I finally got a prom dress at madonnas yayy.. its long and blue--and i cant wait to wear it! I have nooo idea who im going to prom with however. Which is kind of exciting..I like it when things aren't planned out sometimes. ah well can't let this get too long. talk to u cats laterr

potential horror movie moment

Soo Im driving out to a friend of mines house and she lives on the way to Stanton. Im with a friend thats driving and we're talking and we miss the turn that goes up to my other friends house. The next turn off is around a curve, and it looks like its going in the right direction to the house. Me and my friend were feeling adventurous so we took the turn. About 5 miles later the road turns to dirt..welll mud actually. We see a big hill. And I couldve swore Id seen that hill by my friends house-like the last time Id came. We're in a jeep type of thing (Im not too big on knowing car types) so we're feeling confident that we can make it up the hill. Halfway up we are stuck so bad we cant even go backwards. At the time I thought it was pretty funny. Especially since were about technically "a block" away from the house..right? Umm no. We walk up the hill--there is nothing there. I screamed. Really loud--but I'm absolutely sure no one heard me because we were in the middle of freaking no where. I had my phone though..and reception-thank god!! My friend came to pick us up, but I made sure she didnt come all the way to get us so she didnt get stuck too. That meant me and my friend had to walk over a mile in complete darkness through a field to get to gravel road. The night before I had watched The Haunting of Molly Hartley. yyyyea. And it wasnt just every scary thing from that movie I was picturing..it was basically every horror movie id watched in my life coming back to haunt me. Anything from Aliens to crazy people wandering the fields at night looking for morons who get stuck in the middle of nowhere at night. We made it out..very muddy and kind of frazzled. My friend told me later that there actually was a crazy person that lived down the road from where we got stuck-I doubt it, but I never want to find out if shes right. this should so count for two blogs hah.

long time no..blog?

welll..its been about a month since I've blogged. miss me? hahh..pry not. I dont have anything too exciting to report, except that there was a thunderstorm today :) I have a dog named Addy, and she was totally freaking out. The thunder was scaring her and she was doing kind of a hyperventilating thing-I didnt even know dogs could do that. For the next four hours she was acting all weird and following me EVERYWHERE. It was really funny..sooo anyway springs here finally. I feel like the winter lasted forever, but spring came really fast at the same time. I can't really explain that haha. Im just glad its here though..Im going to cry if it starts to get cold again. Cold means I still have to run outside for track--not fun.

The End.

rain

I love the rain. Especially on those days where all you want to do is go home and sleep. It gives you an excuse to dress like a bum.. and I love the sound of it too. Its so relaxing. Im not a big fan of perpetual gray and rainy weather though. Its one of those things that is better in moderation. Its depressing after awhile. If I were Bella in Twilight, I would go crazy in Forks. I would move back to Phoenix..but bring Edward with of course :)
well that all i have for today..tata

longest week ever.

I don't know what it is about this week. but it is taking forevvvvver. I think its because Im looking forward to winter royalty. Its annoying how one week can seem like two days but then the next week feels like two weeks. By the end of that week, I look back at Monday and its hard to believe Im still stuck in the same week. Im hoping tommorow goes by a little faster..but I have swim practice in the morning :( so it may not. Sadly, thats all I have to write about this week..no wonder it seems like this week will never end.
Weekend please!

pass the 'chup

If you were to invent something, what would it be?

I would definately invent a dipping container for ketchup. When you go to Burger King or Mickey D's and you order chicken nuggets or fries, you're offered dipping sauces. Why doesn't ketchup get to be labeled as dipping sauce? Doesn't it deserve to have convienent dipping abilities. I would say far more people dip their fries in ketchup than barbeque sauce-which is allowed its very own plastic dipping package. Sadly, ketchup remains in awkward packets. You can't even get the ketchup out without getting some on your fingers. Once you get one open theres about enough in there to last you three fries. I really think the system needs a change, so my idea is that ketchup should get its own dipping packaging.

swimmingswimming.. go away.

I started this blog last night and I was ready to go off on how much I want swimming to be over. I had a meet last saturday that lasted all day, another meet monday, two really hard practices tuesday and wednesday, and I just got home from a meet in Kearney- a 3 hour drive. Im not allowed to shave my legs or drink pop...(i still do but ...keep it on the d.l.) Theres been so many times Ive told myself I want to quit, and that theres no point in putting all this time and effort into something I know Im not going to care about in a month or so. The more work I put into it though, the more I realize how important it is to me. It can be the swim team or where you work at, or whatever you really put your heart into. Sometimes it might seem pointless, but when you put everything you have into something you care about it really puts things into perspective for you. Im not even sure if that makes sense to anyone else...but its just something I was thinking about.

creeeepy stalker driver

This happened a couple of days ago..but I procrastinated a little on this weeks blog and Im a little desperate on topics. Not that I don't like the prompts Ms. Rowse :)
Me and two of my friends were coming back from lunch. My friend was driving, and we were on Benjamin Ave. We see this car coming up behind us, and they're cruising 45 at least and we're in the right lane, so we get over to the left. The car starts speeding up towards us, then slows down so we're driving right next to him. I looked over to see if it was just someone from school messing with us. It wasn't! This middle-aged..no doubt a pettafile guy was smirking at all three of us! Then he made some kind of funky hand gesture, that I don't even want to think about what it meant. We're all freaking out while this creep is still driving next to us for what seemed like a really long time. Finally we turn off. My friend who was driving was absolutely flipping out. I couldn't help laughing since the guy was long gone obviously..but then we get out of the car and start walking across the parking lot in the back of the school and there he is again! and he was smirking and staring at us again!..i was pretty disturbed by this point so i took off running to the door after he went by. The weird thing was.. I have no idea how he got to the school so fast! We turned off the road..he must've drove like a madman so he could come by the school right when we were walking in. I was a little scared..and scared was an understatement for my friend, so we told Morrie. My friend ended up having to go look at tapes to identify the red van that followed us. That just goes to show how many creeps are out there.. and just because of that I decided a couple of days ago that I'm taking self defense classes someday!!

life lessons

What is the greatest lesson you've learned so far in life??
..I would have to say the greatest lesson I've learned in the 16 years of my life would be to live every day like its your last. Sure it sounds cliche buts it's totally true..I had a cousin who died in a car accident last year. He was 23... my whole family was in shock. The only way we coped with it was knowing that he lived his life with no regrets. It hurt to think about the things he was missing out on, but we all knew how much he experienced in the short time that he had. Imagine if he would've waited until his twenties to start really living? I was relieved to know this wasn't the case for him at all, but it really got me thinking about my own life. From that point on I decided I'd live my own life the same way. Mostly because I don't want to look back at my life wishing I'd lived it differently..noo way. no regrets.